A few days ago I went for coffee with a fellow Saudi Blogger SaudiWoman. She was a sweet and wonderful company. She kept my baby girl busy with crayons and paper, and drew things for her, making her a HUGE hit with my baby girl.. :)
We asked one another lots of questions (it was the first time we met). One question she asked me stuck with me; she asked me what I studied, and I told her I have a BA with a double Major in Political Science and Sociology, she looked awed and pleasantly surprised and quickly asked me with such an educational background why I wasn't blogging about things other then my day to day life. Why I was not discussing more pressing topics. And to be perfectly honest I really didn't know how to answer. I know I gave some rambling nonsense answer, but it wasn't a real answer. But as I sat here for the next couple of days, I realised something, I have been sitting here talking about how I had lost myself in the years I have been here, and that I was losing a bit of myself as the days passed. I was constantly blaming outside forces for my lack of thought, my lack of actual 'thinking'. When I came here I was a very vocal person, who had something to say about everything. As the months turned into years I slowly withdrew from what I knew, and left myself in a cocoon far away from world issues; the reason being that I felt since I could do nothing to solve the problems around us, it was just ;leaving me depressed, so I started to ignore the news and tune into movies and tv shows (I have watched more movies and tv shows in my 6 years here then the rest of my life combined). To be perfectly honest, only I am to blame for what I have become, I can not blame Saudi or Saudi society for my lack (or loss of intelect), because if there is truly anything everywhere in Saudi, it is news, it is discussions on pressing topics, from International affairs, to local affairs, from womena rights, to childrens rights and everything in between. I won't promise to start discussing politics on my blog, but I hope to go back to keeping in touch with the world around me, to building my knowledge rather then slowly allowing it to slowly fade away. I am here to stay enshallah. This country is where my family is, and enshallah where my future shall remain.I have finally come to the conclusion that this is Home, and I shall start to truly live.
The World is at my Fingertips...
Apr 14, 2010